November 23, 2008

true blooded chain gang fanatic

i am a true blooded chain gang fanatic...

and he is back with the World Heavyweight Championship belt…

go John Cena!


I got the picture from WWE Website.

sa lahat ng mga bagay, ayaw ko sa lahat ang nag-hihintay...

sa lahat ng mga bagay, ayaw ko sa lahat ang nag-hihintay...
mainipin kasi ako...ayaw ko ng walang ginagawa kasi ang pakiramdam ko ay napaka-bobo ko...

pero kung iisipin mo ito, ang hirap din kaya ng walang ginagawa, di ba!?

nasa isang tabi ka lang ay nakakabugnot...
wala kang iniisip dahil sa walang kang ginagawa...
hehe...nakaka-inip ang walang ginagawa...kaya mahirap...
kasi di ka maka-laban sa gusto ng ibang tao...
di mo makuha yung gusto ko kasi wala nga akong ginagawa...
ang malala pa, may ninanais ka pang makuha kahit wala kang ginagawa...

kaya ayaw ko ng walang ginagawa, kasi alam kong kailangan kong lumaban...
dahil ang mga taong may lakas ng loob na lumaban sa agos ng buhay ang
sila lamang ang makakarating sa kabilang pampang...

ang hirap talaga ng walang ginagawa, kung ano ano ang iniisip...

November 21, 2008

masarap ang pakiramdam....

hindi ko inakala na magiging maganda ang kahihinatnan ng mga bagay na di ko ninais...mas magiging maigi talaga ang mga bagay kung ibibigay mo ang lahat lahat sa Panginoon...


mga kuha ko ito sa isa sa mga restaurant na madalas naming kainan sa RCBC Plaza. tipong walang problema ngunit puno ng paghihinagpis ang nararamdaman...ngunit wika nga ng mga nakakatanda, ngumiti ka lang dahil ang lahat ng bagay ay magtatapos din...

November 17, 2008

the big night after the big event

Alas! I was able to make it. At first, I was very hesitant because my personal dream is at stake. Nonetheless, God paved way and gave me enough reasons to be true and honestly admit my mistakes. True enough that denying something will not prosper in the end. Though there are still little tweaks in my story but I know somehow and someway, my family is going to understand it.

The truth is when I went out of the room at around 3.30 in the afternoon yesterday, I told myself – “Ang gago mo!” – but I was able to control myself. Hhaayy…(sigh) . I even had a lot of stupid questions . With this in mind, I really need to talk to some good old friend that I could really rely on. So, I went to chapel in the heart of Greenbelt and hate to see myself crying because I know that all my questions and so-called “pag-hihinagpis” were answered. I gave myself a treat – a nice Japanese cherry tea and a sweet slice of Blueberry cheesecake courtesy of my swirl card from Coffee Bean – in order to control my emotional instability and to give Edu the Great a big treat because of his courage.




So, it is done. I may not know what happen next but I know God has plans for me. Thy will be done.

November 16, 2008

today is the day

i woke up early. i had a good mood. it seems that God created this day specially for me and for me alone. i stood up and had a good morning shower. i ate my favorite fried fish (with ketchup) with my pineapple juice. i wore my new polo barong, new socks, favorite underwear and favorite pants.

i went to the church, prayed and asked God to give me his blessings for my three wishes. i saw mami osie on her way to church, too. a cute girl sat beside me in the bus =) . i arrived office in a very stupendous disposition.

the sun is starting to the look at me as well. he is smiling down at me while giving me assurance that whatever happen today, God loves me.

tomorrow is one of my biggest days

tomorrow is one of my biggest days. i will be tested based from what i know versus what i should believe. seems vague? i can't tell the details but rest assured that i will tell this when i am ready.

some "cruel" thoughts before i sleep (cruel because i do not know how to describe them) :

"wow, haba ng patience nya!" - this was my thought when a guy (maybe he is at his early 30's) was preaching inside the bus. though feel irritated, he continued doing his job despite the noise inside an over populated bus.

"bakit ang bike, may break? bakit ang cellphone, nalolowbatt? bakit ang puso di pwedeng pigilan?" - this was a line by kim chiu from the movie "i've fallen for you". sounds corny? yes. in some ways, it's true. we really can't stop the heart beat when we are in love.

"community is not a place for perfect people. this is a place for people who do not know how to love." - this was from father paulo benetton during the last regional convivence that i have attended. i love these words because i really believe that i do not know how to love. i do not have the heart to love but my community is trying to teach me how to do so.

November 14, 2008

sleep almost a day...

I practically slept all day.

Nov 7, 11 PM – I arrived home.
Nov 7, 11 PM to 11.30 PM – I changed my clothes.
Nov 7, 11.30 PM to Nov 8, 2.00 AM – Watched my favorite travel show.
Nov 8, 2.00 AM to 10.00 AM – Sleep Part 1.
Nov 8, 10.00 AM to 10.30 AM – Ate my breakfast.
Nov 8, 10.30 AM to 1.30 PM – Sleep Part 2.
Nov 8, 1.30 PM to 2.30 PM – Ate lunch.
Nov 8, 2.30 PM to 6.30 PM – Sleep Part 3.
Nov 8, 6.30 PM to 8.00 PM – Watched TV.
Nov 8, 8.00 PM to Nov 9 10.00 AM – Sleep Part 4

19 hours of sleep…
What a day!?

 
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