my new year's letter

dear God -

i wanted to thank you for a very special year (2008). thank you for your...

...gift of a very beautiful career in our company. thank you for always giving me a new opportunity to explore.
...gift of a very bountiful personal life (^.^). though i still wanted to live in a "no-commitment" status, i know that you know that i still wanted to meet the right person for me.
...gift of a very awesome community. i do not know how am i going to survive this crazy world without the neo-catechumenal way.
...gift of a very cool family. my family is simply the best. it even gets stronger and stronger each day.
...gift of wisdom. thank you for sharing me the wisdom to understand people and the ability to weigh things up during critical decision-making time.
...gift of love. i always wanted to talk about this. philos. eros. agape. thank you God for loving me unconditionally.
...gift of life. this is really is it. thank you for waking me up for the past 366 mornings. thank you for giving me the opportunity to live on my dreams.

love,
edward

-- january 1, 1 am...

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empake

maaaring masabi ko na may "empake fever" na ako...

habang nag-eempake ako, nagkaroon ako ng problema. di ko alam kung ano at papaano ko aayusin ang mga gamit ko para mag-kasya at hindi lumampas sa tinakdang dalawampu't tatlong kilo...

kanina, nakita ko na wala pa sa dalawampung kilo ang bagahe ko. parang nalungkot ako ng konti dahil sa sayang pala, pede pa akong mag-dala ng iba ko pang gamit kaso lang di na kasya sa maleta ko...

mula dito sa mga nakita ko at sa naging problema ko, naisip ko na iti-nadhana ng Diyos na ganun lang ang maleta ko.

...para maiwanan ko ang ibang mga bagay na dapat ko nang iwanan
...para mapag-desisyunan ko kung ano ang mas importante sa akin
...para malaman ko kung ano ang sobra sa akin
...para maisapuso ko na sobra pala ang binigay Niya sa akin
...para pumasok sa isipan ko na marami pa akong dapat ibahagi

ang galing, mula sa isang problema nakita ko ang liwanag na dapat kong makita...

akala ko mapag-bigay na ako, di pa pala. sobra pa ako...

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si GL na naman...

di ko alam kung bakit? pero pumasok na naman si GL sa panaginip ko...

sabi sa nabasa kong libro, kapag lagi mong iniisip ang isang tao, mataas ang posibilidad na siya ang mapaniginipan mo. pero di naman siya sumasagi sa isipan ko mag-hapon...=(

hhaaayyy...gusto ko lang sabihin sa iyo giliw kong mambabasa kung gaano kahirap para sa akin ang mapaniginipan si GL. pakiramdam ko, bumabalik ang lahat. ang mga panahong siya ang aking ZAHIR. ayaw kong bumalik yun sa aking sistema...

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isang magandang panaginip...

kanina, habang ako ay nahihimlay sa pag-kakahiga. naisip ko ang mga bagay na pumasok sa aking panaginip...

nakakatuwa lang kasi alam ko naman na di na ako dapat umasa pa sa mga bagay na di ko na makakamtan pang muli, pero ito pa rin ako siya pa rin ang nasa panaginip ko...

yes, napanaginipan ko si GL kanina...ayaw ko man pero ganun talaga. ang masaya lang sa panaginip ko, nagawa kong talikuran ang mga ngiti nya at nagawa kong pagmaramutan ang kanyang paanyaya...

marahil, tama si ana, ang bagong lugar ay magbubukas sa akin ng isang bagong pagkakataon upang hanapin ang sarili ko...=)

--dec 27

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last day with my friends...

we went out. my usual companion, jessie, tina and aldrin. we had a good lunch (in congo grille - MOA)...

it was a good day for me, aldrin did not bring any cigarettes. tina and jessie look great. i will truly miss these people...=(

kainis lang si aldrin kasi nung nag-papa-picture kami sa may christmas tree at nag-papaalam na sinabi pa nya na..."how sad naman?"...tumalikod na lang ako kasi ayaw kong umiyak...hahaha!

to my friends who missed my treat - baldo, pam, edwin, leo, ferdie, ces, laarni, dex, etc - till next time...we may not be able to talk because of our schedules but i know all of you are happy for me.

ingat kayong lahat...hanggang dito na lang

see you on 2010!

-- dec 26

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RockStar is on his way to Chicago

hhhmmm...the day concluded with a grin in my face saying goodbye to some of my peers...

it was supposed to be a very sad day because this will be my last working day in manila but i see to it that no tears will flow to my eyes....(iyakin pa naman ako)...Kristine is not successful in teasing me.

instead of crying, i was surprised with my team's little gift before i go. they nominated me to become the rockstar for the month of november...(saya di ba!?)...and i even won the award...

i hate goodbyes, but i have no choice but to bid farewell. to my co-workers here in manila, see you online! to my kids - bill, aiza and kristine - , thank you for being good kids to me.

chicago, go! go! go!

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food trif...

hooked na hookes ako World Topps - as in sobra. My favorites?

Dessert:

Turon Ala Mode...

Pasta:

Aligue Pasta...

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last few minutes

December 7…I do not know what is happening with me. I should be happy yet so sad. I should feel excited yet so numb. If someone else will be given this opportunity, he/she might be shouting out of joy but here I am sitting in my bedroom talking to you…

…I am not feeling well. For three consecutive days, I was suffering from severe cold (baka nga sinusitis na). I was hoping that I could attend my last Christmas Party with Helen and Que but I guess I can not…

…My Mom is not around. I am not comfortable if she is not around whenever I have cold. LOL. Quite funny but it is true. She attended the Grand Marian Procession in Intramuros. I would like to come, too. But I am really not feeling well today…

…I do not want to start my countdown but I guess I have to. It will be 27 days to go. Yes, I was supposed to leave on January 3. This might be what Ana explains to be last minute tutut.

Whatever this feeling is, I DO NOT CARE. All I want is this feeling to be tutut. NoW!

-- written, Dec 7, 2008

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boy minora

hhhmmm...this is one of my latest photos while lighting up the candles in minora during our eucharistic celebration...

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