second day of regional convivence is a day to cherish. full of catechesis, songs and words of God. in the afternoon, we had scrutatio. i have nothing in my head but to think of how to converse with Him. so i prayed and begged him to talk with me.
he did. prayers can really move mountains. and it moved mount edward inside my heart. it helped me to alleviate the pain of "what i thought to be a healed wound".
i am not good in forgiving people. especially those who have left us behind during our dark ages. i always ask myself - why should i forgive him if he's not asking for forgiveness? why should i help him if he left us - our family - from the dark? but there comes a time where i started to open the line of communication. i thought i am fine. i thought that with this effing phone number, i may start to forgive him. but he triggered it, he asked for money. the "what i thought to be a healed wound" became fresh once again. is he talking to me because he just wanted to ask for money?
my scrutatio for - 2 Cor 6: 1 to 2 - helped me a lot. all of the words are leading towards loving and forgiving. every time i ask him a question, the next reading helped me realize the answer. and now, i am just waiting. i don't know if i should wait but i am.
this convivence is so good. a perfect way to commune with Him.
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he did. prayers can really move mountains. and it moved mount edward inside my heart. it helped me to alleviate the pain of "what i thought to be a healed wound".
i am not good in forgiving people. especially those who have left us behind during our dark ages. i always ask myself - why should i forgive him if he's not asking for forgiveness? why should i help him if he left us - our family - from the dark? but there comes a time where i started to open the line of communication. i thought i am fine. i thought that with this effing phone number, i may start to forgive him. but he triggered it, he asked for money. the "what i thought to be a healed wound" became fresh once again. is he talking to me because he just wanted to ask for money?
my scrutatio for - 2 Cor 6: 1 to 2 - helped me a lot. all of the words are leading towards loving and forgiving. every time i ask him a question, the next reading helped me realize the answer. and now, i am just waiting. i don't know if i should wait but i am.
this convivence is so good. a perfect way to commune with Him.
picture from here.
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