dad's 13th year

it was my dad's 13th year death anniversary last april 5 - maundy thursday. and to tell you honestly, it still breaks my heart every time i remember him. my relationship with dad is not ideal. this can be attributed to what i call as "ideal" person.

i grew up as an ordinary kid who sees his dad to be the best person in the world. unfortunately, it ended up with a simple mistake of infidelity. despite everything, it challenged me to become a better person. "i am not my father's second chance", atty. mell sta. maria said in "Relasyon". i think he got it from someone  else but it struck so much. my dad's infidelity issue made me very cautious with my words and what i project to other people. hhaayy...

God moves in a very mysterious way. he used my dad's death for me to find myself in a road what people call as "less travelled". the neo-catechumenal way made me realize that i should embrace my history. embracing that part of my life with dad is so hard but have dealt with it.

and as we think of his 13th year, i still miss him. it is my choice to be like him. i love him.

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