best of the best for 2012

unlike last year, i have a lot of things to share with my 2011. this does not mean that i don't have anything for 2012. but one thing is for sure, 2012 is really something. a very awesome experience. 

picture from here.

top people for 2012

a. dan and albert. these two people are my best buddies. what else can i say? we know each other very much. it's not because we think the same but we know others are thinking. :) 

b. kuya jhing and ate mimi. these two people are really close to my heart. very dear that i don't want them to part ways. they are like my brother and sister. everyone in the community is but they are really special to me. 

c. ruth and joel. they tied the knot. yahoo! after so many years, they finally got married to became one. i am happy for both of them.

b. my girlfriend - florizel. she's always there with me. i love her, no matter what. if she breathes, i wanted to be the air for her. 

e. my mom. she had her second operation for her baker's cyst. she's really strong. i can feel how strong she is.

top events for 2012

a. went to youth pilgrimage. its my first pilgrimage with my girlfriend, what's not good with it!? i love it! every pilgrimage is a different experience. this one is awesome!

b. pamamanhikan. it was my mom's first time in Bicol. the experience with this pamamanhikan is exhilarating. grabe, sobra! i was very nervous yet so happy. the preparation for the wedding is also something...grabe. my girl's family is very supportive as well. oh well, this is it.

c. scrutiny. second time, still we failed. oh well, i am still proud of my community no matter what is happening. everyone has his own story and difficulty to share. a history that we should embrace.

d. this is it moment. i did it again for the second time. well, i can't reveal of course. it was during the scrutiny when i tested myself once again. despite the wedding preparations, i don't know what i am thinking of. lol!

e. trip with my mom to palawan. it was my mom's first time to travel by air! having a trip with her is really awesome. she loves me so much. i can feel it. 

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practical atheism

it was cardinal tagle who coined the word - practical atheism. for him, this is one of the major hurdles in this year's cry for evangelization - this year is apparently called the year of faith. 

this is from here.

“There is atheism which they openly said that they don’t believe in God and there are also those who claim that they are faithful but live as if God doesn’t exist,” Tagle said. from here.

it is true. and this came up to my mind when i heard about the passing of RH Bill in both congress - pnoy even marked this urgent. a lot of personalities expressed their happiness over the event and i am quite saddened because i see them as people with high morality. well, i guess they have their own opinion which i (as a believer) should understand. they openly profess their faith but they decide as if God does not exist.

oh well, it's time heal the wounds of the broken hearted. at least we did our best to pray and made our presence felt to express our side. probably, god is steering the wheel. he probably uses this opportunity to test our faith - until when are you going to be faithful even the door to perdition is out there in the open. God is love. i can feel his love.

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pia cayetano and her experiences: a question of generalization

i am deeply saddened by pia cayetano's actions. i see her as modern filipina fighter but i think she's generalizing too much. she's putting her story to the stories of all the women. here's my take (please read my warning below)*:

picture is from here

a. i think she supported the RH Bill because she wanted to make all filipinas healthy like her and has access to all sorts of ways to control her family. physically fit by running in marathon, which is good. controlling the future of her family by voicing out her opinion - which is good. for most of the people, that is the perfect situation. both husband and wife has control over the family matters. they voices out their opinion on how to bring up their children in response to this world's earthly call.

however, some missing link here. the church is telling us to believe in God and put our faith in Him - not in our hands but in Him.  being fit is not against God's teaching because we should learn how to take good care of ourselves. if God chose her to have 6 children, she should follow. it's the will of God. so if God chose her to be a mother, she should be one. i hear hear some people saying, "kailangan di muna ako mabuntis kasi tatakbo pa ako". so, which is more important, rearing a child of running? i am not saying that pia has the same thoughts but it is a fact that if you wanted to do some physical trainings, you need to give up on something.

b. after RH Bill, she'll push with divorce bill. wow! you know what's my next statement. she's separated with her husband. and being separated means she should pass a bill for separated women. di ba? i won't be surprise if another senator will propose other controversial laws because they are in that situation.

wait, is this really the voice of the filipinos? or the voice of the few? grabe.

i will have to stop here because i might be stressing myself with something that will not be materialized. lol!

i still have high regards with pia cayetano and still hoping and praying that she will have discernment.

*WARNING: statements below are my opinion, not yours. if you can't withstand it, please don't read.

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Dec 20: Huling Gabi!

Ngayon ay December 20. Sa oras na, 11.13 PM ay ninais kong huwag manahimik. Di ko alam kung darating na ang katapusan. Paano kaya matatapos ang mundo? Di lang ako ang nagtatanong ng ganito, at marami pang ibang tanong na karugtong nito...

...darating ba ang mga aliens? ano kaya ang hitsura nila? kung sasakupin tayo ng mga aliens, better pa bang lumaban sa kanila or mag-pasakop na lang tayo? pero sabi ni eros atalia, di pa raw sasakupin ang mundo sa 2012. sino ang nag-sasabi ng totoo? si eros o ang mga mayan?

maganda kaya ang spaceship ng mga aliens? totoo kaya yung sinasabi nila di daw natin nakikita ang mga aliens kasi 3 dimensions lang daw kasi talaga ang nakikita natin, ang mga aliens daw ay mahigit pa dun. sa totoo lang, mas natatakot ako sa alien kaysa sa multo. parang mas totoo sila kaysa mga manananggal, tiyanak, etc..

...paano kung walang aliens, sa halip ay mga aswang yung sumakop sa mundong ibabaw? lahat ba ng mga tao ay kakainin nila? ang mga namatay ba dahil nilapa sila ng aswang ay magiging aswang din? paano sila ma-classify kung anong klaseng aswang sila? pede bang mamili? gusto ko yata maging vampire na lang ako tulad ni edward cullen or werewolf tulad ni jacob. paano kung maging tikbalang ako? magkakaroon kaya ng movie tungkol sa akin?

what if, kasama ng mga aswang ang mga aliens at nag-sanib pwersa sila? may laban ba talaga tayo sa kanila? sige, ibahin ko yung tanong. what if ang mga aliens pala na kilala natin sa green or brown na hitsura ay aswang pala. naku! mas malakas yung powers nila! paano talaga tayo nyan makakaligtas? kaya nila kayang lampasan ang mga bagyo dito sa pinas? eh yung mga tsunami sa japan? yung pagputok ng bulkan? kaya kaya nilang withstand yung mga yun?

...sige, ito na ang last. magkakaroon ng delubyo, guguho ang lupa. puputok ang mga bulkang sabay sabay. lilindol at babagyo sa ibat ibang panig ng daigdig. paano kung ganun ang mangyari? handa kaya si sen. dick gordon sa kanyang red cross? eh si eric tayag, makakasayaw pa kaya ng gangnam style kahit lumilindol na? baka naman, makaka-isang kahang sigarilyo si noy noy sa sobrang takot or stressed. makahalakhak pa kaya si kris aquino?

whatever way man magunaw ang mundo, ang magandang isipin ng bawat isa sa atin, tanging Diyos lamang ang tagapag-ligtas - di man itong ating katawang lupa ngunit ang eskatolohikal na ating pangangatawan ay makakalaya lahat ng makamundong mga bagay!

wag tayong mag-worry masyado. hehehe...iba ibang pamamaraan pero sa dulo, mamamatay naman tayong lahat. ang importante, naniniwala tayo sa iisang Diyos...

my last picture before the world ends (daw!)

teka, teka - anong oras ba magugunaw ang mundo? nasan ba yung mga mayan na yan? kailangan kong magtanong kung manila time ba yun or chicago time? lol!

goodbye world! sayang, di mo naman inintay yung kasal ko...lol!

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mrs. evangelista

i love ma'am evangelista. without her, i will not be able to study in cafuir learning center. she's the instrument that God sent for me to be a cafuirian. i am proud to be one.

she taught me a lot of things. she may not be the perfect role model/teacher/mentor but she is good in managing people. she should've been a good principal of the school - if she was given a chance to do so. she also has "the heart". ma'am evangelista is not just a teacher to me but my mother in school. she sees to it that everyone is well supported in terms of good and quality education.

i may not be a perfect son to him but i hope that she's happy for where i am right now.

where ever you are, ma'am clarita evangelista - you will surely be missed.

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beheaded for refusing prostitution

in the phil, this is something that only happens in teleserye or in a movie. but when i saw this story in yahoo, it broke my heart - as in!

i can't imagine because i don't want to imagine. so sad, how this cruelty will happen on these woman. what happened his virtue? how about his conscience? most of the people in the chat room say that it must have been the culture, the religion. i don't believe them simply because i know that every human being has something good inside them.

the woman - named Mah Gul - is just 20. she died with dignity and my respect. i may not know her personally but i will definitely pray for her soul.

full story is in here >> Afghan woman 'beheaded for refusing prostitution'

this is from here.

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2nd Day: A Sad Day

we woke up late. lol! it's monday today. i heard loida and her kids while they were preparing to go to school. but then, i still decided to close my eyes - sobrang pagod. anyhow, we went to the market first to buy something for lunch. its going to be sinigang na isda. woh! i am excited because instead of the usual kangkong, it going to be talbos ng kamote. it gives a pinkish color! whoa!

we went first to church, the girl in the office said that the person in charge of the schedule isn't there and we better go back by 3 pm. afterwards, we visited villa mila to check on the place. its beautiful and perfect place for us! awesome. right there and then, we paid the down needed to reserve the spot - 3T. its almost 12 PM and its very hot at that time! we first went to buy dried pusit in the market, afterwards we went back to the house. 

after lunch, flor and i decided to book first our trip back to manila in philtranco. done! we drop by to some of the pawnshops to look for a ring. done! we can't find something, though. ahehehe...afterwards, photographer. we came across this place - Apple's. its actually good, with tons of photos around. the package is reasonable and i like it! we booked for their service and paid 6.6T. the package is 9.5T. we then went to some coutures. and this one is a failure. lol!

last stop is to go to church. we talked to emman from the parish office. everything is almost done. however, when i brought up the possibility of neo-catechumenal wedding - he abruptly said no - and urged us to talk to father joel - the parish priest. with his words, seems that neo-catechumal way is not supported in diocese of daet. hhaayy... we felt sad. so sad. we've always wanted to have a neo-wedding. it's our dream and we wanted that way. but seems that this is not the perfect place!

i saw my fiance's face. she's really sad about what we've heard. but we know that we need to obey. obedience is something that each and everyone of us should possess. i brought up the possibility of talking with father ollie when we get up but i know its a "suntok sa buwan". 

pictures are in villa mila.

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Project Enthalpy

Enthalpy is a measure of the total energy of a thermodynamic system. It includes the internal energy, which is the energy required to create a system, and the amount of energy required to make room for it by displacing its environment and establishing its volume and pressure.

i am a chemical engineer by heart and a programmer by profession. as a chemical engineer, i know that there are different types of energy that surround each and everyone of us. well, even high school or elementary students know that. but to tell people what "enthalpy" is, it's really hard to do. 

so, i wanted to explain it in a way where my peers will understand. so basically, enthalpy is internal energy plus work. think of "internal energy" as doing your everyday tasks - create detailed design, create test plans, create code, solve tickets, monitor servers, create reports and others. you need to do these to survive. you need to be effective to deliver. you need to be efficient to add value. you need to excel to have a good rating. however, sometimes excelling is not enough to have a good one. when politics comes in, every effort that made will be useless. 

now, think of "work" as your effort to make another room. another room to showcase your talent. something you don't usually do. its a work to establish another name. this room is usually empty. no one knows how your circle of influence is. it is dependent on volume and pressure. so work is like doing some extra-curricular activities. other people see you, but they do not know the volume of your work in there. they do not know the pressure that you have to make some activities work. since this is empirical by nature, this is where politics comes in. 

so, enthalpy is internal energy plus work. internal energy plus politics. very vague. very subjective. no more words to say. no one to blame. 

i am moving on. just to move forward and look for some new space to expand.

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is He calling me to become a better person?

it was early in the morning. someone texted me. i thought it was my girlfriend. time says it 7.17 AM. too early for 8 am but too late for 6 am. so its not her. so, who is this person who dared to disturb my sleep? 

its my uncle. my dad's brother. here's his message:

musta na kayong lahat jan? parang di ko kayang tanggapin na dalawang buwan na lang ang buhay. pinanghihinaan na ako ng loob. araw araw humihina ako. ang huling tulong na hihingin ko sa yo ay tulungan mo tiyo efren sa gamot ko. para di ako masyadong maghirap bago ako mawala. kay tiyo efren mo ipadala ang pang-gamot. may 600 pa dito perang padala ibili ko ngayon ng gamot at ang matitira ay panggastos. sana tulongan mo pa ako. ingat sa trabaho mo god b.

wow! it's a tear-jerking message asking someone for help. hhaayy. my uncle efren gave him a lot of chances - he gave him a jeepney, a place to stay, money, etc. but everything went to nothing. and he is back to ground zero. as in zero. going back to his mmk-like message, i was caught in the middle of truth versus being good, of being honest versus being tact, of moving on and acceptance versus going back to zero and bitterness.

i see my father in him. they are just half brothers but he looks like my dad. thin, frailty body. big round eyes with thick eyebrows. i hate him because i could not hate him - parang The Mistress lang. LOL! trapped in the middle of nowhere, i found myself numb. trying myself not to talk and reply back. but here's what i should have replied back:

ok naman po kami. kaynino nyo naman po nalaman na 2 months na lang kayo mabubuhay? sino pong doctor ang nagsabi sa inyo ng kalokohang iyan? Diyos ba siya? di natin malalaman kung kailan tayo kukuhanin ng Diyos. kaya wala po kayong karapatang magsalita ng ganyan. sa halip po, dapat at pasalamatan nyo yung Diyos dahil may mga tumutulong pa po sa inyo. di tulad ng ginawa nyong pang-iiwan sa daddy ko nung nasa ospital siya. nasaan po kayo nun? tanging gusto lang po ng daddy ko ay makita kayong mga kapatid nya. wala po siyang interes sa pera nyo o kung ano man ibibigay nyo. presence nyo lang po hinihingi nya, hindi nyo pa po mapagbigyan. kayo po nanghihingi pa ng pera.

full of bitterness right? truth is i don't like to help him. but i think this is what i should do. so, is He calling me to become a better person? i think yes. calling me to become a better person. prayer is all i need. again, relieving to my thoughts that - There are times when you have to say NO in the things that you have been dreaming to say YES.

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eucharist will be eucharist

eucharist will be eucharist. every night is a night to remember. every celebration is a conversation to cherish. for the past two saturdays celebrating the eucharist, i should say that the priests rock! father glen and father migz were really great in delivering their sermons/homilies. 

father glen. august 25 eucharist is more than like a eucharist. it's a conversation with God which tells us what love and marriage is all about. it's so funny because a lot of people shared about the readings. one particular thing that struck me is the second reading from ephesians 5: 21 - 32. you can read it here - its in tagalog because i am a tagalog. =) . 

in the reading, it talks about submission - not just the wives/women to their husbands/men but vice versa. father glen talks about this submission by giving an example about a "may-december" love affair - where a woman is a lot older than a man - of course it can be the other way around. father glen said and i quote

ang tunay na pagpapasakop ay yung pag-tingin sa kagandahan at biyaya ng bawat isa. 

real submission is looking into the gifts and inner beauty of one another.

and it's true right? this is why, it is important to look for someone that will not just make you feel comfortable dealing with (e.g. physical features) but also look for the gift of one another. something that will make you say, "she changed me for the better.". and i think i found the one. 

thank you father glen for this. 

father migz. september 1 eucharist is a completely different thing. i see a God who reminded me that life must go on. i must say that i'm not doing good these past few days because of assessments and probably promotion. and quite devastated about it. of course, i can't talk things in detail but God reminded me of something. 

it was almost the end of his homily. father migz stopped and talked about the following God's will. 

ang kalooban/kagustuhan ng Diyos ay napakahirap unawain. pero kung tayo ay papa-loob sa Kanyang kagustuhan ay saka lang tayo magiging kaloob ng Diyos, isang regalo. 

following God's will is difficult to comprehend. but if you'll just obey His spirit, that is when you'll become a gift. 

probably, it's really not yet my time. not time to have a rating that i want. probably, i'll do something different this year. something i never did before. just like the lesson in "who moved my cheese?" by spencer johnson, i just have to look for another way to get what i want. well, i guess this is enough. God talked to me last night  in the presence of father migz and i know i feel better. 

thank you father migz for this.

one of our eucharistic celebrations.

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katapusan ng agosto

noong una pa lang, nararamdaman ko na. medyo malabo yung langit. pero kahit alam ko na, ay umasa pa rin ako. at ngayong alam ko na, nagtatanong ako - bakit di pa ako nasanay? di ko alam. hehehe.

'yung batid na ng kaluluwa ko pero masakit pa rin sa dibdib.
'yung tanggap ng utak ko pero iwinawaksi ng puso ko.
'yung dapat ay magpasalamat ka pero di ko magawa. 

...ito ung dahilan kung bakit ko pinili ang Diyos kaysa itong mga bagay na ito. sa katunayan, nagdadalamhati pa ako ngayon. gusto ko sanang mag-salita ng marami pero di ko magawa. syempre, kailangan ay respeto na lamang.

kahapon, malakas na naman ang ulan - sumabay sa pagdarahop ng aking puso. akala ko ay patuloy na naman ang pagbagsak nito mula sa langit. lumipas ang ilang oras, pilit nang dumidilat ang aking mga mata. sa aking paggising, naramdaman ko agad ang pagmamahal ng Diyos. liwanag ang bumalot sa aking kapaligiran. nagbabadya ang pagpaparamdam ni Haring Araw at kasabay ang pagtawag ng Panginoon.

tama, sa gitna ng aking nararamdamang pagdarahop ay mahal ako ng Panginoon. sa gitna ng kadiliman ay sisikat ang araw. salamat sa Diyos!

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people i used to know...

august is one hell of a roller coaster. early today, filipinos received a bad news about sec. jesse robredo. early this month, i received a sad news. one of my co-workers was found dead along the shore in lemery, batangas. 

i heard so many rumors about his death but i would like to leave it as is. one thing that i learned about this incident is everything can happen in an instant. i maybe writing this blog entry today but i may die an hour after. that's how it goes. everything can be a blink of an eye. 

also, most of my close friends at work know about my feelings against this person. yes, we used to be close friends but we parted ways because of our differences. in fact, i don't want to talk to him during calls or meetings. i know i might be a little insensitive but i have my reasons. 

because of what happened to him, i sent a quick "hi" and "hello" to my friends whom i call as "people i used to know". just to renew the communication. i received a cold reply from them but at least i took the initial step. 

it is true that true friends are hard to find. i may not know what that means but important thing is i have my neo-catechumenal community to back me up. through thick and thin, they are always here for me. i'm so lucky i belong to the second community.

missing peeps - kuya jhing, pa, ate susan, ate sol.

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goodbye sec. jesse robredo

today is Ninoy Aquino Day. i do not have work to do but needs to check my emails every now and then. i went up from bed at around 8.30 AM, went straight to my laptop and check my mails. oh! nothing special - just work stuff which can wait until tomorrow.

usual stuff passed by until a news alert showed up telling about the bad news. the audio of sec. mar roxas is quite cracky so i couldn't listen to him well but there was a caption below saying that late sec. jesse robredo's body was found. so sad. =( .

for me, he's one of the most trusted people in pnoy's cabinet - aside from mar roxas. tributes were flooding telling about his accomplishments and his effort to change the face of Naga City. he even won the Ramon Magsaysay Award. this is a quite a big lost for pnoy's side and the whole filipinos.

picture from here.

you'll always be remembered - sec. jesse robredo.

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ang pangangaliwa ni kristen: just thinking

paumanhin, maramil di ito yung inaasahan mong babasahin na magbibigay sa iyo ng bagong balita tungkol sa pagtataksil ni kristen kay robert. gusto ko lang patulan ang kuwentong ito na. =) . ito ay base sa aking nalalaman at sa aking obserbasyon. 

ngayon, sino makakapagsabi na mangangaliwa si kristen? magandang babae siya, oo. magandang lalaki ang kanyang nobyo, oo. para sa iba, isa sila sa mga perpektong nobyo at nobya. tunay na kinakikiligan ang kanilang tambalan. pero ano kayang nangyari? sabi ko nga, hindi ko isasalaysay ang tunay na pangyayari dahil sa hindi ko naman talaga alam kung ano.

picture from here.

sa kabila ng pagkakaroon ng masasabing perpektong tambalan ng dalawa dahil sa kanilang hitsura, di pa rin masasabing magtatagal ang isang relasyon. marami pa rin akong kakilala na tinitingnan pa rin ang hitsura sa paghahanap ng makakapareha sa buhay. hindi sa hinuhusgahan ko si kristen, pero makikita mo pangyayaring ito ang isang babae na walang kapanatagan sa mundo. sikat siya, maraming pera, kabi-kabila ang mga proyekto ngunit di pa rin siya nakuntento sa kung ano ang mayroon siya. sige, titigil na ako. 

in our eucharist last saturday, our presbyter talked about wisdom of our heart and contentment. it's so hard to be contented these days. a world full of commercialism. however, he stressed out that we can be happy by listening to what God say. our heart maybe a little "marupok" sometimes but to discern is to follow His will. personally, i hate people who turns out to be a cheater but God's will is forgive and accept. you may not forget things like this but you we need to accept the fact that this may happen and we need to understand.

marami nang nasabing masama kay kristen at iba naman ay dun sa lalaking naging kalaguyo niya. ngunit wala tayong karapatan na mag-husga sa kanila. bagkus gamitin natin ang pangyayaring ito para matuto sa kung ano yung pwede nating gawin.

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goodbye dolphy

dolphy is already dead. we can't change that. and the rumors about medals, distinctions, awards and other recognition may not be too late but should not be questioned at all.

i love dolphy. for me, he may not be funny like he used to be but he's still a head turner. he still amazes me. he's known with comedic acts and his funny ways of entertaining people but every lines that he throw is still funny.

nonetheless, his life may be a little bit off - specially his love life. he has 18 children with 6 partners. for some people, this may be considered as tugs tugs. but you cannot put a good man down. his philanthropic acts, his professionalism and his passion towards his craft is irreplaceable.

anyways, philippines is so grateful that we have dolphy us one of our national artists - no matter what other people may claim.

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paano ba gumamit ng palo palo?

kanina, naglaba ako ng mga basahan. di ako nagpatinag sa dilim ng kalangitan kaya't sa labas ko sinampay ang mga ito. kadalasan, di namin sinasama sa regular na labahin ang mga basahin. (mali, dapat yata ganun talaga. kaya walang "kadalasan"). ibinabad ko muna ang mga ito sa sabon habang nag-wawalis ng mga tuyong dahon ng mansanitas sa labas. di pa umuulan ngunit napaka-dilim ng kalangitan. masarap ang ganitong panahon dahil sa di ka masyadong pag-papawisan. (haha! dapat nag-papapawis ako kasi tumataba na naman ako.). 

makalipas ang ilang minuto, kukusutin ko na sana ang mga basahan. inuna ko yung medyo malaki. kusot dito. kusot doon. naramdaman ko ang init sa aking mga kamay. nagbabadya na maaring mag-sugat ito dahil sa pag-kiskis ng magaspang na basahan sa banayad kong mga kamay. (ang arte, banayad!). naalala ko yung aking tiyuhin. nalalaman ko na naglalaba siya kung naririnig ko ang hampas ng palo palo sa kanilang mga damit. kaya naman, di ako nag-atubiling kuhanin ang palo-palo namin. pumasok sa isip ko, saan ko ba uunahin yung pag-hampas? sa loob ba ng sisidlan ko ito hahampasin? malamang hindi, mababasa ako ng tubig na may sabon. sa labas? dalawa lang naman ang pag-pipilian ko. kaya sa labas na malamang. sa semento, eh marumi din yun kung dun ko hahampasin? ang lalim ng problema ko. binuhusan ko ng tubig at nilinis ang sahig-labahan ko.

nang handa na ako, may mas matindi pala akong problema. paano ko ito hahampasin? iisipin ko ba yung mga kaaway ko? iisipin ko bang ang mukha nila yung hinahampas ko? baka masira yung basahan? pero, basahan na nga lang yun di ba? di na importante kung masisira. importante pa ba yung mga kinaiinisan ko? sabagay, tao rin naman sila. gaanong kalakas dapat yung hampas? kailangan ba may kasamang emosyon? dapat ba parang galit ako? o masaya? 

daming tanong. sa dulo, ibinababad ko na lang ulit yung basahan, nilagyan ng mas marami pang sabon at inapak-apakan ko na lang. 

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won't last a day without you

i watched "won't last a day without you". it starred sarah geronimo and gerald anderson. the movie is simply good. it's so light that you can easily say "yes, it's true". what was kept in my mind were the lessons from george apostol.

this is from here.

lesson #1. pay attention para walang tensyon. kung may lalaki ka at may girlfriend, iwasan mo nang tumingin sa ibang babaeng magaganda para di ka natutukso.

lesson #2. makiramdam kay madam. ang babae kapag sinabi nyang "ok lang siya", ibig sabihin nun ay di talaga siya ok.

lesson #3. the best, pag honest.

lesson #4. be consistent.

lesson #5. romance is a slow dance. dapat ang kiss, nagpapamiss. kasi, yung pag-hihintay, yun yung pamatay. its about that moment before the kiss. dun ngayon pumapasok ang moment ng romance. and you want that moment to linger. kaya dapat, eye contact. make her feel beautiful. na parang siya lang yung nakikita mo. pede mo siyang hawakan sa buhok, sa pisngi. make her feel safe, needed, loved.

in the end, as i expect it, george found herself falling in love with andrew apostol. "her heart says yes but my mind says no"-type of movie. to top them all, she's still in the moving-on stage after her boyfriend falls in love with her bestfriend. in the end, oscar (george's ex) talked to sarah over the radio station saying...

"if this love is your chance to be happy, sana lang wag mong pigilan ka nang sakit at galit ng yung nakaraan."

a true story of moving on and finding another love. lagi namang ganun ang pelikula pero ganun din naman kasi yung buhay.

love. love. love!

i'll give this movie 7.0.

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How Lovely are Your Dwelling Places

I always love to sing. =) . Yes. Often than not, I am out of tune. LOL! Among the songs that I always love to hear (and sing) is How Lovely are Your Dwelling Places. It is simply "tugs tugs". It's comforting and it reaches to my soul. This is from Ps. 84.

How lovely are your dwelling places, O Lord.
O Lord of hosts;
my soul longs and yearns
for the courts of the Lord.
Even the sparrow finds a home, 
the swallow, its nest, 
near your altars, O Lord, 
my King and my God, my King and my God.


Happy he who lives in your house, 
he always sings your praise;
he always sings your praise.
Happy he who finds in you the strength
and decides in his hearts,
the holy journey.
Passing through the valley of weeping, 
he turns it into a blessing,
his strength grows along the way,
till he reaches Zion, till he reaches Zion.
To me, a day in your courts
is worth more than a thousand, 
than a thousand elsewhere.
Because to dwell at the gate of your house
is better than to live in the palaces of the mighty.

-- you can also check this video.

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PANAMANIAC's claim...

recently, some videos reveal that the 19 year old girl had a consensual sex with this panamaniac. let's say that this is true. that the girl indeed went to panamaniac's place on at that time, does it prove that the poor girl can't file a case?

a lot of people reacted. netizens went wild and calling this girl as a gold digger. wow! big word. i have two sisters and a mom. i dont think a 19 year old girl will go in public and tell that she was raped. her reputation is at stake here, it's her kahihiyan.

even wives can file a rape case to their husbands. we do not need a CCTV camera to see if the face of the wife is happy before and after a probable rape incident. grabe! we all have the freedom to talk and raise their own opinions but let us be responsible to it. our kababayan is the victim and not that boner!

well, i am not angry. =) . just like any other netizens, i am just expressing my opinion. hate or love it. lol!

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klawdin/reymart/mon

ayaw ko na sanang maki-alam...lol...pero di ko magawa. ang nangyaring away kina claudine/raymart vs. mon ay isang kahiya-hiyang bagay sa mata ng tao.

a. kay raymart. kahit pag-bali-baligtarin mo ang mundo, hindi tama na suntukin mo ang isang taong mas higit na matanda sa iyo. kung na-aagrabyado yung asawa mo, ilayo mo ito. huwag mong suntukin o patumbahin sa sahig yung mas matanda sa iyo. tanong: likas na ba sa iyo ang pakikipag-away?

b. kay claudine. kung ikaw ang matinong babae, ilalayo mo ang mga anak mo sa mga nagkakagulo. hindi yung makikipatol ka pa sa gulo. ang kaligtasan ng mga anak mo ang dapat mong alalahanin at hindi yung tumulong sa gulo ng asawa mo. tanong: ano ang pinag-kaiba mo ngayon sa asawa mo?

c. kay mon. malimit, ang pag-tulong ay nakukuha sa mabuting usapan. hindi yung kukuhanan mo na lang, kung malinis ang kalooban mong tulungan si claudine nung nakikipag-usap siya sa staff ng cebu pac, dapat ay nilapitan mo na lang sila - hindi yung kukuhanan mo siya ng litrato. tanong: anong pinag-kaiba mo ngayon sa paparazi?

bukas na komunikasyon ang sagot sa hidwaang ito. mga sikat kayong tao at tinitingala ng lipunan. ngunit kung ating pag-iisipan, away bata ang nangyari. isang away na mula sa pagkukulang sa tamang desisyon at konkretong aksyon. sana matapos na ito. nakakahiya kasi kayo.

onli in da pilipins!

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